Free-writing: fatigued expletive

It’s 0021 and fuck is running through my head

fuck these people

fuck those people and all their angry eyes

fuck the questions that they ask and their accepted lies

fuck the shit they want me to be

fuck the excitement they squeeze from their hearts AND

fuck their misdirected lives

fuck my own anger and dissapointment

fuck being a disappointment to bastard mother fuckers who listen for me to enunciate AND

fuck their pointed noses

fuck their flat voices

fuck their lying curiosity and screaming ignorance

fuck their intelligent mistakes and fickle assumptions

fuck hiding in agonized perfection that doesn’t exist

fuck them in their eye sockets until they bleed from their noses

fuck expecting me to be your masseurs of phallic expectations

fuck expecting praise for being a masseurs of fallacious expectaions

fuck your head cold, semen sneeze spilling your brains

fuck your traffic finger stop sign stuck in your ass

fuck your bullshit conscience AND

fuck my shtty spelling

fuck pretending because I’m a coward

fuck having to wait for my anger to match your contempt and prejudice before I speak

fuck worrying about your little feelers

fuck your little fingies and toes-ies wiggling like emotions

fuck my fears and free myself

fuck waiting until I have nothing, to try and gain something

fuck your arrogance

fuck what I see in your eyes - you only see a black hole worth screwing, educating, ignoring or exploiting

fuck that you feel good about yourself by feeling bad about me, sorry for me, angry at me, angry with me, angry with me

I want to ruin your soul and stand on your collapsed teeth

I want to conquer your heart, mind, pockets, and body

I don’t want to hear you tell yourself you want me in your world - I’m sure you don’t

Stop the fucking lies - Not to me, I expect that - Stop lying to yourself

What do you think is beautiful, you beautifully ignorant-ass-motherfucker?